Opening the door they let me
in
my room I walk

Bed table TV locked in a
cabinet
mesh on the window.

Bathroom padded door there’s
no
seat on the toilet

Everything is welded
to
floor and wall.

No room for maniac to
wield
a table or throw a chair

The door closes behind me and I
see
peeping hole partially closed.

Bag drops to floor it’s the
only
thing that’s mobile and me

I fall on the bed.

–

Later I stand outside my
room
only in boxers I’m ushered back in

It’s well into the night
when
I get my first dose then sleep.

The morning comes round another
pill
still dreaming still sweating

My mind is calm I know that
all
this is what I have now.

A tour of the facilities
leads
to a functional kitchen

A spacious living room TV
between
programs showing adverts for alcohol.

Walk past table chairs and
settee
I see outside

But first the heavy door to
open
I do with a strain all over my face.

In the fresh air mind starts to
breathe
mesh like table and chairs

No smoking signs people sat
smoking
you can’t tame the beast.

Large sloping grass
leads
down to a fence

A tree centered surrounded by a
hole
my anxiety grows.

I’m inside/outside together at
once
people are looking

I fall down the hill and hit my bonce.